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Time flies so fast o_O gawd. See? We’re going to be second year students in DLSU already! XD Anyway, this is the schedule that Gem and I made (funny that we made the same schedule XD).
Well, for those who are wondering where I got the schedule for JAPALA1. Here’s the excel file: http://www.4shared.com/file/91585078/fe3ba65f/CCS_COURSE_OFFERINGS_TERM_1_2009-2010.html edit: Since the first DLs can only choose digimed. So this is the revise version. XD
That’s all. XD haha sorry can’t do the table form right now. XD Mood :  tiredMegu answered this test and I tried it out. XD My “family” is so messed up. XD Mood :  gigglyI was reading this book titled, For One More Day by Mitch Albom. I find it really interesting so far. Then when the character was telling that his mother was a French Protestant while his father was a Italian Catholic, he told this part that made me laugh so hard:
That sure made my day! XD Anyway here are the lyrics if you’re curious.
(lyrics from Lyrics Mania) Mood :  confusedThis afternoon, my friends and I went to eat at Flaming Bufallo Wings. The food there was great! It has been a long time since I’ve eaten such food. Real food. Though, it is somehow deadly. Talk about Calories. Anyway moving along, Gem suddenly shared this question: “There were two sisters visiting their mother’s grave. Suddenly, a prince charming came. Then next day, one of the sister killed her sibling. On the time when her sibling was on the grave, the prince charming came again. Why did she killed her sibling?” I thought of all the possibilities I could and so I answered, “Hmm… maybe because she wanted to see the prince charming again.” It took time before they reacted to my answer. Then Gem said, “OMG Cara! That’s how a serial killer think!” All I could say, “eh?” Thinking about it, I suddenly remember I encountered the same question when I was still in High School. I got the same result. I got the mind of a serial killer, but I can’t kill anyone no matter how much I loathe them. I gave me a thought of the possibilities why I have a similar thinking of a serial killer. Then, it suddenly hit into me. My past. The old me. I was no serial killer before that’s for sure but when I was on my elementary, I was a suicidal kid. I think of ways how I could die, how I felt I’m not worth living in this world, no one would really love the way I am. I hated the world for being so mean to me, I hated every mistakes I make, I hated to know the truth about it. I was scared (and somehow I’m still am) to see the real world. I was also an envious person, how I’m jealous that my classmates back then were rich and can get almost anything they ask for to their parents. Jealousy grew on me, I hated myself. I kept on crying and crying on small things. Maybe, this could explain why I love Envy (from Full Metal Alchemist) so much. How I could understand what he feels and why he does this and that in both anime and manga. Sick, but that’s the truth. Though, everything has change for me when I reached High School, I learned to accept who I am and I still have a reason to live. Just be myself, I took note of it. Somehow, it worked. I gain more friends during high school, I felt somehow more comfortable communicating with others. I’ve opened up a lot. Sure, I still cry, but I cry because I was hurt as if I was stabbed through my heart. But I can assure to you, my friends, I could never kill a person. I’ve planned a lot of suicidal scenes way before, and I couldn’t do it. Why? Because I know that I have friends who can make me happy while they can make me happy at the same time. I know there are people who loves me especially now, he’s still waiting for me and I’m still waiting for him to see each other one day. I’m happy to have friends to be there with me whenever I’m up or down. I thank you and every moment we have spend together, they’ll always be precious to me. I love you all. Mood :  awakeWhat can I say? Yesterday was one of my worst day of the week. Actually, this week is my worst week in DLSU… ever. I didn’t attend my whole class again like the other day; I only attended my Departamental Exam for DASALGO. When I woke up, I was feeling a bit bad. Headache was there, though sometimes it comes when I was awaken by my alarm. Annoyed, I clicked on the snooze button to give me 5 more minutes of sleep. Eventually, my mom came in my room, checking how was I doing. She checked my temperature with his hand and said in Filipino, “You need to rest. Do you have any exams today?” I cleared my throat, coughed a bit and said, “yeah… 6:30-8:30pm. I can’t miss it.” “Okay, you’ll just attend your exam. Get some rest.” “mmokay,” was all I could say. Releasing a few more coughs, I went to my bathroom and do my morning duties. Suddenly, a thought came out randomly. “Oh… It’s Wednesday… I wonder if he’ll be online… he still doesn’t have his new laptop though,” I thought, losing a bit of hope seeing him. As usual, I was so stubborn. I still used my laptop to check who’s online and to review DASALGO. What can you expect? I didn’t got any chance to review the other day. They made me go to bed… well, it was for my own good… As I was saying, I was plurking a bit then my internet connection died on me. I kept on refreshing until my laptop can detect the router. Then there. My internet came back, YM logged in by itself again and… I squealed. He was online on his mobile. I couldn’t help but to double click his name and IMed him. Somehow, my sickness left me for that moment. I felt joy and comfort while we were talking. It was short, but it didn’t matter to me. I missed that guy. I miss every moment we do together. Though when he stopped replying, I suddenly missed him. I began to wonder what he’s doing… Did he got caught? Did he had a fight with his mom again? Or maybe he’s just doing his homeworks? I was paranoid again. I shook my head, reminding myself that he’ll be fine and recalled that he doesn’t want me to worry to much. So I decided to review my DASALGO. Gwenie, my friend, was also online that time. Wondering how she is and talking about random things. She also sent me blog links. I couldn’t help but read them at the same time. Time reached at 11am. I was somehow getting bored, then suddenly I couldn’t help but spaz. He was actually on YM. We started to chat again. He apologize to me that he fell asleep. I find him so sweet to think of me when he woke up. A part of me wants to snuggle him and hug him so much. I find it so cute, I can’t really explain why but there. We were having some sweet moments again. Before we said our goodbyes, he confirmed to me that he’s finally going to get his new laptop on the 23rd. I’m getting excited about it. At the same time, he also wished that I’ll get well soon. Then he signed off to do his howeworks. My sickness came back, unexpectedly, but it was lessened. Moving on to my DASALGO exam, have I mention that it was like hell? Other than me getting stuck in a traffic, I felt like I might get a passing grade only… or maybe even lower… It gave me a headache and I felt so sick again. I really, really want to sleep on the spot, but sadly I can’t. Why is my sickness so evil to me? …Rest, please come here more often. I badly need you too. Mood :  optimisticYesterday, I attended ENGLCOM because of a quiz. I could always have cut all of my classes just to rest… but I can’t. I wasn’t really sure if I could always get a make-up test. When I was on my way to Gokongwei to meet up my friends, I was coughing a bit. I thought I was better and this sickness was just the same old as before. Boy, I was so wrong. As I stepped in the room, G306. The room was cold, my throat started to ache again. I tried clearing my throat (and somehow it help). I saw Chad and Joshua, I waved hi as I approach my friends. Chary, Gem, and Gwenie were still there doing the Exercise in OBJECTP. I wish I could help them, but I felt like my brain isn’t functioning well. I saw Julie watching over the three. I could see that she wants to help as much as possible if only she have learned the lesson already. She is a caring friend afterall. Julie asked me how was I. I started dictating my sickness as I count along with my fingers. Headache, muscle pain, sore throat, colds, and coughs. Well, that made my day. That’s for sure. Suddenly, I couldn’t stop my coughs. I was coughing like hell. I could feel my tonsils aching in pain as if it was being poked by thousands of needles everytime I cough. That time, I’ve confirmed. I was still not good. As for those 3 girls doing their exercise, sadly they couldn’t finish it and just sent it for the sake of having a grade. Well, it is better than having a zero. Moving along, we decided to eat at the 6th floor of Andrew. Since it was still early, we got an elevator easily. My cough suddenly said goodbye for now. I thought that the canteen wasn’t so cold but boy, it was so cold. I somehow felt lucky for wearing long sleeves that day. As I tagged along to the catering, I saw the pasta. I didn’t know why, but I felt like eating lunch again. Everyone ordered Carbonara, except for me - who ordered Spaghetti - and Josh - who ordered rice. While we were eating, everyone was having small conversations (which I sadly couldn’t remember). I was happy and contented seeing my friends there and being with them felt so great. My coughs came back, then I could remember Chary, telling me she’ll bring this Chinese medicine for me the next day. She said that it was for sore throats and that it tastes sweet. I felt grateful and thanked her. I somehow felt excited trying that medicine. Afterall, I’m also a Chinese, trusting my lineage’s medicine isn’t that bad. Luckily, we came just in time for ENGLCOM. Our professor wasn’t still there. Julienne stayed in for a bit. While Romi and Josh were joking around, I couldn’t help but laugh. Oh, have I ever mentioned that laughing was bad for me? Everytime I laugh, coughs came in. My throat started aching and my muscles ached. All at the same time. Despite the pain, I couldn’t stop laughing at those two. Once the professor came, everyone scrambled to their seats and Julienne went to her class. The test for that day was outlining an Article about computers for young children with or without disabilities. It was giving me a headache for each time I think. The room was silent and chilly, after all we were taking a quiz.I want to cough so much but I don’t really want to create such noise. Clearing my throat every time I felt that my cough will strike again. It helped, somehow, but it was killing me slowly as if I was being choked by something. “How much time left do I have,” I thought to myself. Luckily, my questioned was answered when Calvin stood up and passed his paper. I wrapped up my answers and passed them. My friends who passed by me asked if I was okay. I answered jokingly, “If I said yes, would you guys believe at me?” Well, of course, I felt okay just being with my friends makes me happy, but my body wasn’t really feeling so good. Before we said our goodbyes to each other, we hanged out a bit at the second floor of the Andrew building. We photocopied the notes our DASALGO professor has uploaded. After that, I pleaded goodbye and went down the stairs. Then out of the build. I dash to my car and went in. My dad was waiting for me that time, afterall. My dad asked me how was school. I was just, “mm yeah. It’s okay.” I wasn’t really feeling good that time… again. My dad asked me out to eat dinner. I told him I wanted to eat at Rai Rai Ken. I really wanted pasta that time. I don’t really understand why. As we go to Rai Rai Ken, I was just listening to my favorite radio station, Magic 89.9. My sickness likes me so much that it won’t leave me at all. When we reached Rai Rai Ken, I ordered Chasyu Ramen. It was one of my faves. I didn’t really have a conversation with my dad. I was living in my own world again while waiting for my ramen to come. Once my ramen came, I took my chopsticks and digged in. For a moment, I felt victory. My coughs left me while I was enjoying my ramen. It felt like I was in heaven. Sure my throat was being punished by the hot soup, but I didn’t felt pain at all. It was truly heaven. I was so glad that it died somehow. And I did my same old routine, as I reached home, I’ll use my laptop and do some plurking. Then suddenly it hit me. I was feeling hot, I was looking for the electronic thermometer. Feeling a bit dizzy, I went back to my desk, watching my idle laptop. I haven’t reviewed for my exam. I don’t have any other choice, my mom gave me Tempra and water. I layed down on my bed. “Will this be my last night? Am I going to die? I can’t die yet… I haven’t even met him personally… Ugh… I still need to study for DASALGO… Why now? There are other days… Why during my midterms? Why won’t you just leave me alone,” was all I thought as I drifted to sleep. Mood :  soreDamn it. I hate this, I got freakin’ colds again. Other than that, I got muscle pain, I can’t walk well. Also the muscles in my stomach (abs perhaps is what it’s called..?), hurts badly also whenever I cough. Oh, also my throat is aching like hell. Isn’t that just great? I had to cut 2 of my classes today and attend one later for the quiz. I reviewed for my DepEx for tomorrow. Dang it. Why is my body not doing well nowadays… Mood :  sickOh yes, where am I? As for whoever has been watching my blog, I’ve been plurking. Yes, Plurking! You heard that right. It’s basically like a YM status and people will start on making a comment to the point that it turns into a conference. XD Well, I was kinda got dragged in by Gwenie. xD It was due to our boredom. <3 Haha. Also, I wouldn’t really plurk in the first place if dRO didn’t die. *sigh* :< It died due to finacial problems and their internet connection isn’t cooperating with them. Though I think it’s also that it can’t handle much players? *shrugs* After that event, well, I still chat with some close dRO friends. Nothing really change much between us. ^^ Other than that… I’m slowly turning into a nerd or something. x.x You might think that it’s fine, but for me, it’s not! T_T Why? Well, simple, it’s just not like me. D: And it creeps me out badly. Sometimes, boredom scares me. It does it’s own creepy ways on me. It makes me do things which are not really that common, like wanting to sew a plushie. Well, I still want to for a special reason. Should i share it? Nah. =P Updates how I am? Well… recently, we just had our LEAP and pass our phase 1 of our MP for OBJECTP (2 more to go! Woohoo! .-. ). Along while getting sick every other week. x.x I’m blaming the weather for that one. It’s really weird… Oh well, I’m somehow doing well for DLSU <3 That’s what matters for me. For this coming week, guess what? I’m going to have tons of quizzes. Hello Midterms~! So fighto mode on. <3 Yosh~! Must get high grades… or else. *dehdz* Well, that’s all I can share. xD Oh, I’m not sure if you’re reading this, and I know you know you’re the one I’m talking too. I miss you badly and I wish that you’ll get a sparkly new laptop. <3 Get the built-in webcam. >:3 hahaha! Oh and I still can’t beleive your mom broke your laptop. |: That’s just so… bleh. x.x Okie, okie it’s getting late now. Hopefully I’ll be posting weekly. <3 Mood :  crazy |
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Gwenie knows this already. I was just listening to may playlist then bam! Hot by Avril Lavigne played and got stuck in my head. x.x I don’t really know why… have I been thinking of him too much or something? x__x But they lyrics doesn’t suit how I miss him. x.x Mleh. Doesn’t matter.